My journey

Why I became a Holistic Therapist

So this is my first ever blog! And what better way to start off than by introducing myself properly, for those of you who haven't already met me and are thinking about inviting me into your home for your treatment.

My journey into the world of alternative therapies began almost 25 years ago. Working in the corporate world of retail head office in London and leading a very busy lifestyle and not looking after any part of my wellbeing and health, I started having anxiety and panic attacks almost on a daily basis. A GP I went to told me to stop being silly and to blow into a brown paper bag if I had an attack and sent me on my way. At the time, this felt like I was let down massively by the NHS and I turned to recreational drugs and alcohol to escape my feelings of dread, anxiety and fear that I was feeling on a daily basis. However, I now see that by not giving me medication  forced me to find my own way to recovery through holistic therapies and alternative healing. My self-esteem and confidence was very low but because of the stigma behind mental health, I told very few people and hid behind a mask of someone who appeared to be very outgoing. I forced myself to do things, I was always a fighter but I wanted so badly to feel normal and feel me but I did not know how and I did not know who I truly was. 

I moved to Portsmouth in 2000 and I met my soulmate, Scott, with whom I knew from our first meeting that we had a very deep spiritual connection and we continue to support each other on our healing journeys together. After the birth of my first son, Jude, in 2004, I started my Reflexology training at Highbury College,  Portsmouth and I had a dream that one day I could help people feel relaxed so they would not have to experience what I was feeling. I completed my Reiki training when I was pregnant with my daugher, Saffron in 2006 and that year I also completed my Massage training at Highbury College. I also undertook a few other courses but I felt ready to start practicing, in between staying at home most of the time, looking after my children. I had a few treatment rooms that I worked from and I also started to meditate every day at home and with a weekly meditation group at The Quiet Mind Centre in Southsea. And it really did quiet my mind!

Meditation changed my life. I learned that I was not my thoughts, not my anxiety, not my panic attacks and that I couldn't escape them, but by fully opening up to them and accepting them for what they were, I could then truly heal. It was a very difficult journey and when I was pregnant with my third child, Lawson, I was still having panic attacks but determined to heal. I had a lot of help from various other healers and read so many self-help and spiritual books, practiced regular meditation and yoga, and believed so much in The Law of Attraction that I created a new me.

The last panic attack I had, when Lawson was still a baby lying next to me in his side-cot, was the worst and seemed to go on all night but I knew that it would be the last. I asked The Universe and The Angels and anyone else out there to help me release this once and for all from my being. And in the morning, I felt very exhausted but something huge had shifted in me. I knew that as long as I continued to look after my health and wellbeing with alternative healing, good sleep patterns, healthy food, gentle exercise (yoga) and positive thinking, I could keep my mental health in a good place from now on. And I'm still learning and growing every day. I have a thirst for knowledge about this subject of natural healing and as I learn, The Universe presents me with new challenges to grow, peeling away the onion layers to find the essence of who I AM. 

And so now, I have been 3 years in the running of Sanctuary Home Healing and I am loving every minute of it. I am a firm believer in alternative healing and that we can use natural ways to heal ourselves and that by doing so, we are also healing those around us and the world! We are all part of each other, we all mirror each other, we are all here for a purpose. For me, the reason I believe I suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for over a decade is so that I can now help others. I now realise how we must never ignore our body and what it is telling us and that we must look after it, always, the physical, the mental, the emotional and the spiritual, for like us, they too are all connected.